Pubescent Dream

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I didn’t expect that:
Rocks on a sandy shore,
White foam gushin’,
Heavin’, thrustin’, lovin’
So I’m embarrassed now to catch your eye
My dear cousin

Theatre of the Backwards Play

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I drive
backwards through time,
past shops that sold toy cars,
down the hill I could not cycle up.

I see myself outside the chippie
laughing,
then turning up late
for that date that turned sour.

I remember my weekend job for £1 an hour
where those houses are now
and pass the post box where the post office
is no more.

I wonder how,
with the butcher and corner shop lost,
kids could be sent for messages,
missing out on the penny basket

and so I wonder what is the cost,
as I watch from my driving seat,
from my personal theatre that shows
my own backwards play:
the towers of my knocked down school,
the safety barriers of the once open pond,
and the bush that is no longer able to hide
its kissing occupants,
not that it was I who kissed her that day.

Winter Colour

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I captured Winter
and took it home,
kept it locked up
where it’s deep,
monochrome frozen heart
lay silently in my lap
and was lulled to sleep.

I held there such power
of an ancient time,
while, unknown to me,
it waited patiently
until some unknown
appointed hour
to address my crime.

Confused, then, my look
when I saw the child
in a sudden burst
that shook iridescent colour,
and while Winter thawed
so was I returned
back into the wild.

Bypass

the traffic walks
along four lanes of grumble
while abandoned coffee cups
in the morning jumble
provide no ups
to moving clocks
and unread signs
on parked cars on flyovers
sit in wait
from where people jump
away from dreams,
down with a thump
amongst bottles and cans,
a spate of papers and foil,
the refusal regime
won’t tidy it all
as a nation of litter louts
continue to shout
about unanswered plans
disappearing with speed,
knowing this is us all along,
stationary,
while the sign over the carriageway reads
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Lighthouses

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Within corners of the past
the salt stings sores left open
and looking back, re-reading my tales
I see a light that mocks,
that shines and yet turns dark
in unending sequence,
unaltering, repeat, the same,
pointing towards me,
pointing blame.

But I see clearly now friendship
fastened around my wrist in patterns,
which did not, to me, let tell of its romance,
and while the lights,
in their merry dance and mark
provided beacons to those who pass,
to me, I saw nothing,
and so the spark that sets the fire
was lost deep within the waves
and slowly I let slip
that long-ago
abandoned ship.